May 2011
6 posts
youll never meet anyone more emotional than me.
what did i get myself into.
i lost me. who i am. i dont even know how my future is anymore. i dissappointed everyone. i just can seem to make the best of it right now. i have to think fast. its killin me. ive been making the wrong decisions. but my crowd and friends are always there. i hope things will soon be better. please forgive me. im trying i really am
I just haven't met you yet.
i dont know who i am anymore
No sleep.
no sleep because im hurt
no sleep because i cant seem to be happy
no sleep because i fail at everything i go for
no sleep because the paths i take are a disaster
April 2011
1 post
going the right direction
i havent posted a blog in a long time.
my senses are clear and ive made my decision.
ive messed up big time and i cant come close to fucking up again.
Theirs always a point in life where something or someone can catch you off guard. i know now as long as you know your goal and you stick to your goal no matter how long it takes you, you are to accomplish it. i know now that listening is just as...
January 2011
1 post
im addicted to call of duty
thats all.
December 2010
1 post
i lost everything including myself…
September 2010
5 posts
Friday night.
shouldve never happened. shouldve never went out to eat. shouldve stayed home. shouldve been…
I have a crushhhhh
Iphone
Yay :)
whats in it for me?
your just a totally different person now.
August 2010
3 posts
im sad.
all i can do is...
continue what i am suppose to do. i have a long ways to go before i graduate. even though its only a year. i gotta stay focused because my hopes as of rightnow are useless. im beating my body to the point where i just want to give up and not do a thing. i do to many that my body cant really handle. im sick. sick of the failure that ive been getting into. i wish i still have someone to talk to. im...
reginvld:
I wouldn’t exactly say I miss you, but i do miss having someone to talk to 24/7.
July 2010
17 posts
Stuck.
its been a while since ive had this depressing feeling. i hate it.
i never learn from my mistakes.
i have a lot of work to do.
a lot of smarter choices to make.
because the end of next month will be a successful month.
Fireworks.
Your eyes shoot me like fireworks.
Bottom to top.
Your eyes make my jaws drop.
Neutral Heat to 2nd degree burn
i look up to the sky and its you.
my head turns.
i got chu.
ive known you for quite a while now. weve been through a lot! i cant believe how fast time flies by. i sure miss the good memories good times. i would like to fall back onto that. i would like to enjoy those moments. your too rare to be pushed away of my heart. its hard to focus now n days. you had my back support when we were together. you gave me hope. i love you for that. dont ever change. you...
Half way i go
patience. that i wait for.
exaggerating over nothing.
im finished with all this junk food.
i want a nice body. its been probably 4 years since i was fit.
time to step my game up.
course 1
today is my last day of my first course at Universal Technical Institute.
it went by so fast.
i love it.
its hard but i think i got this in the bag. ill be making moola in no time.
Be clear. a secret?
i cant figure this out on my own. i feel as if theres no point in trying ya know?
is there somethin there for me?
or am i playing tricks on myself?
too many questions. so little answers.
i think im just irritating myself.
school is my top priority.
leave it at that.
these blogs get to me.
id really like to speak with you in person but i think were both scared to do so. lol.
i sound...
mysterious you.
its crazy how fast i have fallen for you.
because of the vibe i get when your there.
the ways you make me smile, laugh and everything else.
Your jokes are always funny.
simple conversations we have that mean a lot to me.
we seem to chat more through text. through blogs.
its all good. its starting somewhere.
im curious. curious about you. there is plenty more to learn.
let me learn more...
hey mistakes happen. apology accepted. you didnt have to say sorry. but ill accept it anyways lol. texting you made my day. wish you couldve stayed up longer. wished we couldve Kicked it today. its all good. Keep it positive. leave the negative behind. Yee!
I like you.
neeeinalem:
that’s it.
i need a break. but i also
need someone to talk to.
someone that wouldnt mind talking to me.
someone that can make me smile 24/7
someone who can treat me fairly.
just someone that likes me for who i am.
someone that i can argue with but end up cheezin at the end.
well. i have school. i dont think ill be chatting with anyone.
blog later. peace.
i can surely say that my hopes have just dropped.
apologizing never works.
its been a year since i graduated. having real hard times to decide. look i know you care. i thank you for that. im sorry for disappointing you. i was acting and thinking way beyond expectations. i really dont want anything ruined between us. but i guess thats the way it has to go. i really want to stop. but fun is my middle name and it gets hard to forget about goodtimes. id do it for you. but...
chance.
its easy to say that i do have something for you. its easy to say that this can form into something stronger. something so pure. it is definitely easy to say that i wouldnt want to lose someone like you over a what if type situation. you have nothing to worry about because the way things are flowing between us feels like its going into the right path.
nigga :]
i cant remember
the last time i DIDNT haVE a phone. all i know is that it really sucks because you have no communication whatsoevver to the outside world. i felt alon luckily george was on my side. i did have a phone but the battery only lasted probably 20 minutes and just turned off. stupid nokia. even last night was fun and ended up seeing my close buddies i wish i had a good phone on me just so i had someone...
had a great night.
Goodnight fellow martians
June 2010
13 posts
REkindle
you REpeat this so many times. i understand. i am in a better place. were still young. anything can happen in the very near future. your very unique and very hard to get by and get over. so much has happen to me in the months that we are not together. im used to it now and it wouldnt hurt to see you come back. i would try but i dont think you would because your heart is reserved for a different...
THe night is quiet.
Sick.
my body and mind can only take so much!
so much to where stress and irritation comes in to place.
i havent felt this exhausted in a long time.
ive been quite busy with my whole schedule.
yesterday i worked and felt sick to the point where i was deciding to quit.
i start to feel lonely.
Thoughts are bursting into my head.
i sometimes dont eat for a long period of time.
i stress and breakout...
its one of those nights.
where you sit there wish what you wouldve wanted to expected but just didnt have the chance to. its one of those nights where you just gotta get on with it and let it go. ive recently learned to do that. i just gotta let it go. get over it. move on to another new phase. so its sunday. working at 5:30. i should have enough sleep. but damn school is a pain in the ass sometimes. i hate studying. my...
Now and later.
its obvious. you know now. i know now. what will the outcome be? i shouldn’t be thinking about this. its not right. time is hard for me right now. time to lay low. low as can be. focus on school! here and there is what will happen in the future. but like you say. a homie husband. a homie wife is what i want. were young. the future awaits us. we may have just met. but a bright outcome is...
doll.
i catch you. in the eye.
how do i know? its time to fly.
out of ways, THrough Drunk and high.
Give me a reason. give me a thought.
its time to start. the path that i chose.
For the good, for the best.
Finish this to finish the rest.
Free me from This nonsense.
LEgit. True. Wonderful as can be.
i have no days left. Today will be the.
Last. as the past was a good fortune.
focus on school,...
Here and there.
Friday will probably be the last day i get to enjoy my vacation with no hassle. since im starting school monday i have to focus. its where i will begin my hopes up for my dreams to come true. 18 years in the making. these next 2 years will be tough but i know i am tougher. its Wednesday and i feel like i havent accomplished anything. i have friday comin up and need to prepare for. i have work...
Life.
is wonderful.
i couldnt ask for more.
im going to san jose later today
so wish me a safe trip! lol
i wish someone would come with me to my hometown
ahha.
Have fun with it!
Break it up, Roll it up, and SMOKE IT!
not a day goes by
when i dont think of you! its that crazy.
i dont know if you see it but i do.
yes you have someone by your side.
do you think i care!?
im sorry but your crazy for even taking a step into something like that.
i sit here with plenty of happiness. who cares?
why dont you be happy with me?
what happened a long time ago is said and done.
were wasting time. time that seems to never go away.
...
The love is still there.
its hanging. by a thread. a thick thread. i know its there because everytime i text you. you dont text me as often. a reply form you would take forever. so i wait. and when i do get a messege. i get excited. i get Triple threat heart beats that i can see my chest move up and down. but after all that excitement i check and it ends up bein someone else. this might be too much for you. just out of...
May 2010
22 posts
im home.
i need to be home more often. ive been out this whole weekend.
Sometimes you just need to tell your mind to shut...
(via missmaximo)
Congrats to class of 2010
You guys are special to me even though i graduated a year earlier. i wish i couldve graduated with you guys. all of you are something. something special. moving on in life. this should be fun. haha. Congrats.